"Part of what psychedelics do is they decondition you from cultural values. This is what makes it such a political hot potato. Since all culture is a kind of con game, the most dangerous candy you can hand out is one which causes people to start questioning the rules of the game." - Terence McKenna
Here’s the situation. Rent is past due. The check was sent out yesterday and it’ll be cashed on Monday, July 14th. The money for the check isn’t in my bank account because we don’t have it. We don’t have any money. I work minimum wage and less than 20 hours a week. I started my job in May to help my family out the best I could despite my own mental illness and problems but it’s not enough. Every one of my checks has gone towards rent + utilities. And I know, I know, that’s adulthood right? My mother is an adult as well, and that exact mentality is what drove her to the point where even as I’m speaking to her now she can’t say anything but “I’m done.” “It’s over” and “I give up.”
No matter how bad things got. Not having water for a week, losing the car and having to take the bus everywhere, nearly starving for 2 months… still my mom never broke down. She worked a factory job, retail, fast food, you name it. Just kept her head down to make ends meet. Only ends meet. We’re still in the hole by a lot with no means to pay it back. Today we have to look at whats most pressing and that’s the rent. It’s always been this cycle of “What can we do without?” and constantly losing and losing until there’s nothing else. My mom doesn’t have anything more to give. She’s worked her whole life to get to this point and still it wasn’t enough.
I want a roof over my families head. I want to keep my cat Kip. I want to be able to at least have a house to live in. I’d live in my car if it came to it because I don’t care what happens to me. My family- it’s just me, my 18 year old sister my mother who quit her job recently because of a depressive episode, and my two youngest siblings who are 5 and 6 years old. They don’t have anywhere to go if we lose this place. Me and my sister can cope because we’re adults, but my two smallest siblings? I’d be living in my car if I we get evicted which means I’d have to give up my cat. My sister might be able to move in with her boyfriend. My mom can barely get out of bed, much less cook and provide for my youngest siblings so no one else has any means of housing and feeding them if we don’t come up with the rent this month.
Literally $1,000 is what we need. Of which doesn’t even cover anything besides the rent only but it’s… my mom finally came home and it’s scary how she’s switching from complete despair to telling me “Take it day by day. No use in crying about it.” There just aren’t any other options for us. We’ve exhausted every one of them this year and now it’s do or die. I’m really sorry. I try not to ask for things I don’t need. It doesn’t matter to me if I end up homeless and I know I’m privileged enough to be alive and at the very least, loved and appreciated. It’s just that this month- today, it isn’t enough.
Anything will help. Even a dollar or just well wishes. I’ll personally thank everyone who signal boosts or donates at all! I can write fic maybe? To at the very least make people get their moneys worth.
If anyone has any questions at all, they can message me and I’ll explain anything you might have questions about. I know that my family isn’t the only one suffering and things can get hard, if you can’t donate please consider signal boosting! My paypal is firstname.lastname@example.org
Thank you so much for even reading this!
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